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Wednesday, May 30, 2007

because my mind is in a freezer, i have absolutely no inkling of what new blog add i should choose for an lj account. yes im thinking of creating a NEW lj account cos im so into new things and im not the kind that would stand still or stay rooted into one blog address for long. all in all, im easily bored by things around me.

maybe i should make use of this supposedly 'trait' of mine and create a new blog add whenever i enter a new phase of my life. so maybe come august i'll change another blog address? heh i think i've really had it with thinking of new addresses but the temptation of switching to other blog providers and passing time by trying to make sense of the new layout is just to great to give up.

so on monday, vera and i went down to planet fitness to try out their group classes cos they gave us a 1 week trial! totally cool! we went for the 'body combat' class and it was helluva tiring! at least for me cos i havent been exercising for a loooooong time! tiring in a sense that its hard to keep up and i kept doing the wrong action and make myself look like a total goondoo! still thinking whether to sign up for the pf membership cos i really wanna lose weight! think pf's service is much betta than cali's.. cali is kinda not sincere when they know we are sponsoring ourselves for the membership. its very ex! $89/month for student plan plus $200 registration fee! thats crazy u know! it adds up to a thousand plus alr for a x month membership. ohwell maybe pf is good enough! hah.. have the moolah, dont hv the interest and passion..

some irritating bloke has been pissing the hell outta me everyday by waving like an idiot and giving those disgusting smiles.. i feel soooo harassed.. 1 more month.. just 1 more month till i leave this work place!

Posted by faintheart at 10:07 AM

♥there's a time to cherish

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

i think for me, life has been pretty amazing.

during my jc days, i realised the importance of friends. they really would make your day! even though they may drive you crazy at times, and make you all unhappy over some of their actions, they are really worth cherishing. it is things like this which help us all grow into more mature young adults with the ability to think using your mind and not to rely on your heart all the time.

my friends, they've been there for me. well perhaps not all of them but i believe somehow or rather they would! i really wanna appreciate them the way they are. it never occurred to me that my sec school friends would exceed my jc friends in terms of 'closeness'. its not that my jc friends arent close to me, its just that our relationships are of a different level. and by that its nothing negative alright!

all these years, i've lost countless of friends. but they made me hold even more dearly to those still existing.

yes my dears, i love you all.. even my bf cant match up to you all!

Posted by faintheart at 1:27 PM

♥we go downhill baby.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

been pondering about past issues. yes they're back to haunt me. i guess that this problem of ours can never be solved. we have absolute stands. so extreme they cant even meet eye to eye at any point. its tough trying to. i know its tough on you as much as its tormenting me. but there's nothing i know that can solve it. love's will not suffice. its the values that we hold that are so different. they've blinded us. they've made us into people who cant agree.

its not so simple as conforming. some things cant be solved by conforming.

im at a loss.. never felt so lost before..

he is hurt. and i am the arrow.

Labels: tangled

Posted by faintheart at 12:06 AM

♥do we still seek the truth?

Friday, May 25, 2007

many a times, people lie to save their own skin.
white lies, how pure are they?
some lies can leave you distrusting a person.
the only difference between a real lie and a white lie is the extent of happiness you obtain from them.
but how would you know?
nobody will admit that they lied..
so we'll end up thinking that what another person have said is the truth.

i dont know whats your motive in saying all that you have said.
i know you wont read this but HECK!
its just an unjust feeling..
this feeling of deceit.
yep i'll never really take you seriously anymore..
because in the course of that i found myself mistaking you..
mistaken you in being a supposedly 'nice' person..
no.
i dont even know you at all..
neither do i want to..
thanks.
bye.

Posted by faintheart at 2:08 PM

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

just yesterday, i have yet again proven my stupidity in the words i use and in the things i say. i create lots of unnecessary trouble which can be simplified into 5 words.. i brought it upon myself.. i dont have the guts to play along.. so dont play with me anymore. there are many things which are i find so wrong about myself. i only have me and my mouth to blame. character wise, i dont find myself having any problems.. but its the things i say.. so that means my brain has some disorder.

i should really go and reflect upon myself..

ps: no underlying meaning!!!

Posted by faintheart at 11:36 PM

♥so they say the future's bleak..

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Posted by faintheart at 9:41 PM

♥nyny!

a fantastic weekend with the girls at nyny like 2 weeks ago? haha yeah this is a tad slow but i dont have time to wait for pics to upload! busybusybusy.. haha.. good food, 'ok' service and great company!

and we all went crazy over the self-made candy floss! its rather fun to play with but to finish the whole bunch of candy floss is pure torture! its so SWEET!! only jas seems to be indulging in her favourite hobby.. nevertheless, the candy floss is lucky to camwhore with us! haha..

love you all girls! we need more of such outings to keep ourselves sane, by being unsane.. ^^

Posted by faintheart at 12:51 AM

♥EXCLUSIVE

Friday, May 18, 2007

hey girls, im thinking of creating a blog just for us! we all can blog into this blog.. its like have 3 authors in one blog.. we'll keep it private yeah? so in this way we can keep in touch with one another's life without having to go through the hassle of meeting up and sms-es.. but hey! that gives no excuse to absolutely no meetups or messages alright! that is a must-have! so in this way we can read about the problems without having to bore others.. haha we can bore each other till death lah! so jas, you're happy now right! your lorsor posts with names included can only be viewed by us and rest assure we wont disclose anything to any other person! heh.. and vera, you can forget about those weird messages you send.. those that need much deciphering..

haha say bye bye to deep, cover-up posts!

text me online bout it yeah??

Posted by faintheart at 1:48 PM

♥on the right track now!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

yay blogger is alright now! was wondering what happened to it before that man.. the text box is really out of alignment.. couldnt be my browser right? cos i've blogged at home and in office and its totally the same problem.. was contemplating converting to livejournal or smth cos i like my nick.. -fetishforlove.. haha just sounds nicer than 'justkissmyheart'.. so corny! but anyway i prefer my present layout.. nice! been trying to create smth like this but my lack of creative buds really couldnt pull the job through.. so i shall stick to using other ppl's layouts for the time being..

heh.

jas is right man.. i should seriously stop shopping online but its really addictive! i browse them while slacking, and they're my livelihood.. (so to speak) the clothes online is nice and i love wetseal! forever21 is like getting rather boring.. at least wetseal is still affordable and the varieties they provide is rather wide.. i dont think there's any wetseal stores in singapore yet so i guess its still pretty 'exclusive' in a sense.. really wish to go to newyork while im young so that i can really go shop without paying the shipping charges! and newyork is soooo captivating! i must really make it a point to visit there when i have the money in future..

so my bosses arent in the office yet.. one of them is on mc.. so i practically have nothing to do for the rest of the day.. now thats good! but i have to watch my back, in case that 'blackface' snoops around or watch me from his office.. hmm ok fine, my other boss just gave me work to do.. nvm shall do it later! =p its always so freezing cold in the office.. its an icebox.. makes me run to the toilet every other hour can! (hah not that bad actually) but its colddddd... and i love my hot choc to bits.. gonna bring two packets tmr to make a super concentrated one for breakfast! did i say that this coffeeshop near my office sells really nice fish soup? even the fish beehoon also taste nice! i prefer the one with beehoon though cos i barely finished my rice the other time i ate it.. the soup one is more fufilling and the fish, its SOOOOO FRESH! yummmmm.. had a damn satisfying lunch.. and i kinda slacked 1 hr away as of now.. loving the 1pm lunch hour.. time simply passes MUCH faster after lunch..

yah its 3pm now i should get back to work!

PS: im missing my baby now.. i really hate ns.. they make lonely souls outta us.. right vera?
PSS: i wanna get more bags! more shoes! and more of everything!
PSSS: & im craving for sashimi.. anyone?

oh my tagboard is somewhere in another frame.. do tag!

Labels: randomness

Posted by faintheart at 2:35 PM

♥damnit!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

just as i was about to place my order for the wetseal spree, the spree closed..

-.-

damn sian lah!!! i spent half an hour, trying to avoid being discovered that i was surfing such websites, and deciding whether to take yellow, or black, or yellow, or black... and its closed after i come back from lunch!!!! ARGHHHHHHH... and previously there were many wetseal sprees going on and i didnt join cos the stuff i saw weren't that nice.. now that i saw smth i like, it has to close.. WTF! and i didnt mean to not join, i was out for lunch! damn im so aggitated now..

ok fine.. its just a spree. its only a spree!

/edit: haha when i went home at night, i saw this new spree organized by
sherin.. i ordered my previous dress from her as well! ok so its gonna bye a
long wait before i get my items.. hopefully they turn out nice! haha im not
feeling that pissed off anymore.. =)

Labels: whatthefuck

Posted by faintheart at 2:43 PM

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Sunday, May 13, 2007

like i said, at least one post a day!!

so today's mother's day! i love my mummy! haha treated her dinner at jackson.. some nice crab beehoon soup thingy.. cost me $98.. but kind daddy paid the bill alr and i offered him a 50-50.. the food didnt taste that nice as before, maybe due to the crowd.. but its nice hanging out with my family.. i love such outings! ns definitely made me closer to my parents.. =)

and that silly boy's back to army again.. gonna miss him! he looks kinda cute with his new hairstyle.. haha and he loves to touch his head.. i dont know what the hell those army barbers did to them you know! they just like to touch and touch and touch! and thank goodness i could recognise him from the hoard of army boys.. its pretty scary to see so many army boys and they all look the same! haha..

its getting late.. i wanna go to bed.. tomorrow's the day for kbox! yes! missed it sooo much.. havent been there in ages.. i need to sing badly!

Posted by faintheart at 11:28 PM

♥decisions..

i shall promise myself to blog at least once a day so that i can keep this blog flowing with posts..

so the other day i was talking to denise online about uni and stuff (cos we kinda always seem to talk about the same usual stuff).. and she asked me why havent i accepted NUS's offer.. gee i guess all i can say was that i'm kind of insecure and uncertain of my future in accepting fass.. i mean, what can you do with a degree in social sciences? is my passion and faith enough to keep it going? i've seen that my stint at sentosa didnt really go well.. maybe the whole thing was that i overestimated myself! i thought that i could interact and interact well enough.. but it wasnt.. and with my '3-mins worth of passion', i really doubt my own capability.. i was secretly hoping that some miracle will come by and NUS business would reply.. i've been trying to convince myself that business is totally not my cup of tea.. well, i think i suceeded.. i was never a leader, and even when i was, i screwed things up.. its not that i didnt have a chance.. its that i didnt grasp the opportunity.. i probably didnt even realise its an opportunity! i'll hide behind, all curled up and hide my head inside the sand like an ostrich.. well what makes me think i'm aggressive and confident enough to take it in the business world? maybe its just dreaming..

then again.. no one will know it before they've tried anything! so i believe that this is what has been arranged for me, and this shall be what i should do.. there's a reason for something to happen and there is also a reason to accept it.. i should come to realise that all these i've been doing are just tools of deceit.. come on! i'm like already thinking of what hall to apply to, what course to take, what kind of life i wanna lead! what more do i have to wait!

perhaps its time i click that button, accept it, and be on my way..

Posted by faintheart at 12:11 AM

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

haha friends.. get the link? LOL!

Posted by faintheart at 11:06 PM

♥drowsyness and boredom makes the bed look good

Thursday, May 03, 2007

i've finished my work! and yay i have the luxury of time now that i have nothing on my in tray and that the rooms behind me are all empty!

hint: think managers' room

hah thats why im here thats why im typing all these thats why im slacking!

i have this urge to go shopping again.. cos i just received my paycheck! hah im a happy girl! now im just thinking of where to go and shop cos my nights are practically very boring and i seem to have lost touch with all my friends.. where are you my friends! and no jasmine.. my friends arent my sparetyres.. im not such a person! oh well.. all plans have to be shuffled to the weekends cos thats when everyone is free.. i dont wanna go home! how.. maybe i shall head down to the library and be a geek.. i've taken to reading books nowadays and i like reading colin cheong's books.. btw he's my pw teacher and a very short but smart guy. his writing is pretty good.. gonna borrow another one if i can get my hands on it.. =) did i say i wanna change my hp? i have this sudden urge to get a hp with in built radio! all the captivating songs.. im getting bored of my present playlists.. i think i keep playing the same songs so thats why.. =/

im really really bored! shall go look for work to do..

ciao!

Posted by faintheart at 3:53 PM