♥

Sunday, April 29, 2007

just sent this guy off to the island of pristine beaches complete with five-star accomodation and with full facilities.. haha.. perhaps you all would be able to guess that location.. to quote his mum, "bryan is going for a holiday for two years!".. but i find that too long a holiday.. lets fast forward the 2 weeks alright!

and im pretty bored nowadays.. by work, by the mundane life im leading, by the monotony of everything.. even shopping cant really cheer me up even though i bought this really sweet looking dress for $25.. im so hard to please, seriously.. sometimes i dont know what i can do to make myself happy.. you see.. shopping isnt really therapeutic cos what if you see smth which u really really adore but the price is so nice until your eyes pop out.. a sumptuous meal is good for the stomach and for the mind but then again u have the money factor coming in and the feeling of guilt when u feel your tummy fully bloated.. talking to the boyfriend on the phone makes me feel loved but i am reminded of the fact that he cant talk for long and i have to wait for 24 hrs for the next call and that is a long long time!

all the negatives in my life.. they really suck.. esp the part where the bf is not by my side.. i dont think im coping well with it. im some spoilt girlfriend wanting attention from the boyfriend. and its only the beginning.. i really miss him..

BUT..

life still has to go on.. i'll wait like a silly idiot by the phone each day at 930pm.. that's life's pleasures for me from now on..

:)

Posted by faintheart at 1:38 AM

♥just too naive

Thursday, April 26, 2007

when i think of the many mind games people play on others, my stomach will just recoil in disgust. perhaps the only justification ever to such sick behaviour is that people just want to win, gain victory over the weak ones, and boost their ever enlarging ego. i dont care whether this statement is fit to be a sweeping one. but all in all, this is what i experienced and this IS what i feel.

to be manipulated, desensitized; this feeling is all but pleasant. it just proves the fact that kindness doesnt pay. treating a person with sincerity will not have its rightful returns. maybe im just simply naive, opaque to the ills of society and the malicious nature of mankind. maybe a little too trusting of others. whatever the case, i've learnt to distrust. its time.

if i ever go to fass, it must be a calling.

Posted by faintheart at 4:39 PM

♥heart died.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

sometimes i wonder why do i keep that smile on my face.. im an angustly hurt person deep inside. i dont know what i can do to obtain inner peace. i dont see how those tears would just flow. i dont understand why i just cant communicate with the people closest to me, those that gave me my life.. maybe its because they're the closest to me so i'll feel a greater sense of hurt to the things they say. one simple line can just blow me away.

maybe one of the reason why i want to start uni life asap is because i dont want to stay in this house anymore. i dont care how much it takes to stay alone. i dont care how much chores i have to do. i just dont care. all i want is to live in my own life, bathe at whatever time i like, eat whenever i feel like and do what i deem fit. imagine, no one breathing down your neck, no one ignoring your words, no one knowing that you're all but human..

everyone's self centered. their big ego is crushing them and crushing others. perhaps that is why we have so many people who are so unsatisfied with their world, having mental disturbances and problematic relationships. no one really sits down and analyses their relations with one another.

you know, every tues and thurs is a special day for me. its the day my mum ever cooks in the whole week. but of late, i dont see what kind of magic it holds for me. i would rather spend the time eating some junk food with the people who appreciates my presence, not someone who would eat and go out 45mins later. keith urban's song lyrics are ringing in my ear.. "alone in this house again tonight.. i've got the tv on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine.." what irony..

time and again, circumstances keep reminding me that for whatever problems, i am to take it myself. i see no meaning in sharing it. i know, its called independence. no one's gonna help you solve it. no one's gonna be there to tell you everything's ok.. you just gotta fucking solve it yourself..

Posted by faintheart at 12:17 AM

♥office smalltalk 2

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

work is starting to become more interesting and more enjoyable! at least i start talking to my colleagues now after starting work at the company for more than a month already. the people there are rather nice. haha. hopefully for the right reasons! and just yesterday i kind of banged the 'roller-able' cupboards against the walls even though i pushed them real gently, and both my managers looked at me at the same time! mr gorgeous kenny (he calls himself that!) even threatened to record down the act! haha.. mr gorgeous kenny is nice.. almost everyone is nice..

i love those msn chats even though the content may be something which i dont really want to remember and those tea breaks which i absolutely enjoy. the pantry's small, but ohwell its somewhat big enough during teabreak cos there aint that much people. funny how i can actually take up coffee now! caffeine has totally zero effect on me, so i'll stick to milo now!

anyway, i've been wanting to tie french plaits to work for many days already. but i've been getting up rather late nowadays and i barely have time to do my makeup! today i tried cos i had half day and it was a total failure.. i think my hair's too layered.. and i wanna get a new hair colour. thinking of whether to highlight it only, or colour and highlight, or colour only. COMMENT!!!

Posted by faintheart at 9:18 PM

♥when randomy kicks in

Monday, April 16, 2007

arhh.. boring day yields boring posts.. someone please stop me from shopping! im still waiting for my little miss tees from sprees and that wetseal dress! that damn wetseal dress! it better fit me!!!

Labels: randomness

Posted by faintheart at 9:31 PM

♥today is friday

Friday, April 13, 2007

if you havent realised, today is friday the 13th.

that explains why everything seemed to have gone wrong today!
i felt totally stressed at work, over what?
those damn tax forms!
and i seem to be helping people do stuff from all over the place.
hah.
silly me.
i went to ask for work.
cos i dont wanna be caught slacking around you see.
and stupid kevin said i have a 'reputation' in the office.
sheesh
what kind of damn reputation is that?

anyway work today was relatively enjoyable probably cos it was TGIF. lol..
colleagues were so darn funny!
well really looking forward to work everyday cos there's a new girl daphne.. haha
finally a person i can sort of relate to..

and he's going to camp sooon..
hope i can use some sims 2 cheat to delay time.
haha talking about sims2, i made my sims have a baby again!
i cant wait to play it again tomorrow..
dang why didnt i take it from baby when i wanted to just now!!!
*withdrawal symptoms*

and i realised i need some shopping spree to make myself feel good about myself..
every girl just has to have one!

Labels: randomness, shop till im broke

Posted by faintheart at 11:25 PM

♥the unsaid

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Labels: emo-ing

Posted by faintheart at 10:05 PM

♥he's gone..

Monday, April 09, 2007

we'll miss you bapok/jerk/ass!

see you after two weeks!

Labels: emo-ing

Posted by faintheart at 11:10 PM

♥

Friday, April 06, 2007

so wed was total fun 'overseas' for me vera and jas! had a chalet over at sentosa and the room was pretty pathetic in my opinion. however it did not stop us from having a totally fun time! alright! had a mini birthday celebration for jas as well.. it probably gave her a big shock! i loved the present we gave her and i think 2 heads is better than one. thanks vera!

and wed was ladies' night over at st james! went crazy dancing, drinking and just having hella fun! the crowd at st james was pretty decent and the music was great! its a pretty good first experience and i'll definitely go clubbing again! heh but the aftereffect was so bad that i fell sick and went woozy the whole day today. and i didnt know that panadol takes so long for the effect to come about..

and hey im loving ladies' night!

Posted by faintheart at 9:50 PM

♥some sims crazy!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

ooooooohhhhhhhhhh!

im too busy to update cos i'm so caught up in THE SIMS 2!

ok i know im some kuku mountain tortoise who has just played the sims 2 like donkey years after its out, but hey! its HELLA FUN!!! just that my stupid com is so stupid to have a videocard which is so lousy and i remember the person selling this com saying that this video card is good enough for most games. *PUKES*

now im soooo addicted to it! been playing it the whole of yesterday and this morning! haha my couple had a baby already! and he's super cute alright! yep its a he! haha.. and he's now a toddler now and knows how to walk! sooooo cute!!! >.< ohman i've gone all mushy now! cant wait to get back to my game but i've gotta do some stuff now.. haha.. and baby's not gonna let me keep his laptop for long.. =(

baby please!!!!! =3

ok this is soooon not me! excessive usage of exclaimation marks!! and i cant wait to explore all the cheats to use! hahahahahahhahahahah..

ignore me cuz i've gone crazy now!

ciao!

Labels: she's nuts

Posted by faintheart at 10:05 PM