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Thursday, March 15, 2007

The most stupid choice I’ve ever made in my 18 years of mere existence is to come to my boyfriend’s mum’s office to work. Perhaps others have already deemed it as a mistake long before I could realize but I still allow myself to plunge into this sea of animosity. People are all but the same. You never know when someone’s stabbing you at the back. Some remarks may prove fatal to another. Eyes of concern may wind up condescending.

human nature.

i just dont like people to associate me with my boyfriend or any one related to him. but ironically, the truth is that i pulled strings to get into the office. for what? just for a higher pay and hopefully a better working environment. materialistic, yes. hankering for more attention, NO. why cant ppl treat me as a normal being, a normal office girl who has absolutely no relations to the boss's son at all? why stir up such a "status", if any? under any circumstances, i have convinced myself again that i have made a stupid decision.

why do people have certain assumptions about others. why do you have to create this certain 'belief' about a person's character when you know nothing about the person's true self? why do they simply 'assume' that they are that sort of person? or assume that i will work in the company in future simply because i chose to take up business?

i see disapproving eyes whenever i mention that im working in his mum's company. barron even said that he will never work in his gf's mum's office or whatsoever. thanks alot friend. everything and anything just reilliterates the fact that all in all its a dumb and brainless choice.

wait.

so what if i know? so what if i dont know? all i want is to not know. live in my bubble and just believe that people dont have underlying meanings under their words.

anyway, there's no way out.
its too deep to climb out.

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Posted by faintheart at 9:39 AM